Today was a bad day

Today was a bad day,

I didn't get out of bed.

I didn't shower, didn't eat,

I did what the voices said.

Today they were relentless,

poisoning the thoughts inside my head,

"You're worthless, you're a mess.

You're better off dead".

Today was a bad day,

I feel like a clone.

Surrounded by those who love me,

Yet I feel so alone.

A prisoner in my own mind,

With no relief at home.

Drowning in loneliness,

But craving to be on my own.

Today was a bad day

I hurt myself again.

I didn't mean to, I wasn't thinking,

But it helps with the pain.

Please don't look at me like that,

with your anger and your shame,

It's a tough battle I'm fighting:

Me against my brain.

Today was a bad day,

Mentally all over the place.

Happy one minute, crying the next,

an emotional headcase.

The panic attacks still strike,

Torturing me silently, then gone without a trace

As I take deep breaths and count to 10, I'm reminded that

recovery is a journey, not a race.

Today was a bad day,

yes that is true.

But tomorrow will be better,

I believe in you.