So here we go again. The same morbid imagination, a different web link.
I've put a lot of thought into what I would want my new blog to be about: something more positive, maybe? But then, I've never been very good at maintaining positivity- my inherent pessimism and rapid mood swings keeps the people around me on their toes. So why should my writing (which is still as plain as ever) reflect anything other than what I am thinking/ feeling at that point? However, I'm not the same person I was 3 years ago when I first started ranting to the internet, and would like to think I have grown as an individual in this time- even if somewhat small.
So, whilst I cannot promise to always promote positivity and excellent life skills, as that is simply not within my capabilities nor experience (I am an expert at screwing up my life and forgetting to learn my lesson), I will try to take a more glass-half-full approach to life. I can vow to always give my candid and often controversial opinions, even when they may not necessarily be appreciated, just perhaps with a little less attitude to previously (though, not likely).
At the end of the day, I write these posts as a form of self-help to help me deal with the torrent of emotions, insecurities and anxieties I have about myself and the world I live in. I write these posts because I enjoy writing, I enjoy the whole process of collating my thoughts and putting them into words as a method of processing how I feel about something I may not be able to express otherwise. But most importantly, I enjoy the prospect of maybe, just maybe, helping somebody who might be experiencing or feeling something similar to myself, to show them they are not alone. So, if I can be relatable to just one person or make one person smile at my wacky way with words, then wasting hours of my life on an amateur blog has not been a waste at all.
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